There're a lot of documents to fax over some government office tomorrow.
Lets hope all goes well. I do want to work. But given the circumstances I am in, just not right now. 1st November to be called in for Induction is a little too soon. Which means, if I were to accept this Induction, work will start latest by the following monday. Please let me defer the Induction, dear good government officer. I’ll go for the next one. I promise. :)
Most stories have endings. Good or bad, happy or sad. But some, there is just none. It hangs. It does no justice. Yet it's so common. We just start over a new page. A new story, a better beginning hopefully.
The ending may somehow just fall into place. Eventually.
To fight such feelings, that root deep in your soul requires great strength. Pain, regret and anger are amongst recognized emotions. Others, I couldn’t place the words for it. Where do I go from here, only god knows. Will I get better? In time, slowly perhaps. I don’t think I’ll ever be the same, but this experience definitely has made me more mature, if not stronger. To let go is difficult. Not impossible, just that I had held on for too long it’s hard to imagine any other options. I’ll have to pick myself up now. Again, alone and hurt, to gather the courage and face the world. I believe tomorrow is another beautiful day. Perhaps, I’ll sleep in peace as tomorrow comes. We all deserve this. To be happy, to be free.